Reserves

Thump goes the beat
With the heart like rhythm
Badoom boom it goes
But which one is it?

Is it the fast paced rush
Are you out of breath yet?

Is it the slow, swirling, sensational
Not quite sleeping but close enough…

Or is it the constant drum
At a pace that lies still?

There is more
Like how I am entangled again
With you

Are you trying to pull me in?
I have infinite reserves of blessings
From God and in Christ’s Name
And I pour them on your head
Amen
Peace

Strangers

I never smile to strangers
Not because I do not want to
But because I can read their hearts
And can see what they think of me
When I do
So I bless them instead
And walk with a heavy heart
For I carry you with me
When I look at you
My heart explodes with Joy
At your beauty
I have to veil it
Oy what you do to me…

Realize

Led by the Spirit
I Was, Am, and Will forever be
One with Him

So I asked Him

My Father, my Fountain
Refresh Me, for I thirst

In the prayer to You Our Father
We pray
Your will be done
On Earth as it is in Heaven
Only no one on Earth seems to understand
What that means

How is Your will done in Heaven?

The Father answered…

Be blessed then with this Knowledge
My Will is done in Heaven because everything in Heaven is subject to Me
Do as the Angels do for their love is forever.

Thus the only way to fulfill the prayer itself
Is to truly offer God the Father
Your own free will
Daily
That simple

At some point you are all going to realize
That scattered throughout the earth
Are those who have truly risen from the dead…

And I cannot stop smiling
I am smiling because God is smiling back at me
I am smiling
Smiling because I know
The Lord raised me from the dead
And my heart is pounding
When do we get to announce it?
When can we say out loud in a trumpet blast
That all Glory be to God
That we have been raised from the dead
And Jesus has Returned!

As I stood in amazement
My Heart tugged at a chord
A song strummed my heart strings
Sing to me your lullaby of love, my Love
That song forever enthroned one after another
Soothe my suffering with the swirls of your heartbeats
Where else shall I place my head to rest?

So out poured a treasure trove of Gifts and Love
Joy and blessings for all
Be forever for His Glory
Amen

A Day In The Life Of

A day in the life of the Lord
Is a day of Life in Heaven

A day of work in the Lord
Is splendid, joyful, merciful

A day of rest in the Lord
Envy I would cause should I say

In Heaven
On Earth

Got my bible on my left
Got my childhood on my right

What is next, perhaps I will wing it?

Just When

I collapsed to the ground
At the feet of my Father
He lifted me and carried me
He is so perfectly strong
And I am so perfectly weak

I was a mere child
Abandoned on the side
Left exposed to the devil
Exposed to demons1
I am still recovering from that..

So the Spirit of the Lord
Consumed them with His Fire
Oh, there was delight all right
Joy in my heart that day
Love came and conquered me
Love always conquers death
No matter how disfigured I had become
The Lord loved me so much
He became me and I became Him
Truly One
No denying it
I even confessed it


1Demons have a way of harming those they hate in such a way that there is nothing to show for it, physical, mental, even “paranormally”/”supernaturally” as you call ita; if you go looking for that kind of suffering, it will be given to you, that is your freedom if you so choose, but this should NEVER be sought! See and understand, now it gets complicated as we are delving into a way of living in the Lord that for anyone who does not already know the Lord as they should, they require commandments (which will not be written) to try and prevent self harm and harm to others to their own peril; seeking the very suffering that leads to Hell, there is no one to blame but yourself;

However contradictory it may seem, but by uniting yourself with the suffering of Jesus on the Cross, your own sins are guaranteed to be nailed on that Cross! So, if you do suffer, whether it was brought on by injustice, accidental, self even with repentance, and so on, you will not die a second death because He already died and rose from the dead WITH you, therefore Jesus has raised you up to Heaven while united to Him, this is the Good News!

One can even enter Heaven while living on Earth, but forgiveness of all sin and long a journey is required, which must be granted through the Sacraments!

Since you have been granted more time before the hasty obliteration of this world, in truth, the path to salvation through the Cross of Christ, ESPECIALLY THE LOST, is simple: Receive Him

I must point out, that if you are not yet baptized in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, you all should be. There are plenty of Catholic parishes around, Catholic because by the very foundation of the faith itself, the priests there are legitimate, that is what is meant by Peter being the Rock, the Catholic Church stands, as will Tradition, as is demonstrated by the Romans in their strict adherence to that purity and devotion of the Sacraments, this is so beautiful, wonderful, majestic, and to be celebrated for the very devotion itself is evidence to what prevails. This Rock, as Jesus stated correctly, Hell itself can never prevail against (they also know that Jesus can knock it down if He so chooses, but the Rock will stay).

Go to them, tell them that I told you this: The Lord desires you to receive the sacraments of Baptism AND First Communion the day you call them asking for it, and if the Parish is to arrange a time, do so within a matter of days, that is how grave this is… How many are the lost? Do it in groups if you must, but if they refuse you, and some will, DO NOT pester them, judge them, or call them out, just leave them in peace and move onto the next, my command is that the ground be made low for you, and causing trouble is not. Those that do not hinder you, but rather help you, they will be blessed for it, and also a sign that they are with the Spirit of the Lord at work, by such you will all be granted miracles of healing, cleansing, casting out evil spirits, the raising of the dead, and more, more than what is written of in the days of Jesus and in the Acts of the Apostles. Those that insist you partake in a long drawn out process of enrollment with beautifully planned ceremony that takes years to completion, know that you only have months left. Even so, such ceremonies should only be done if you are baptized as a baby, and during which such children are fostered by the Father in spiritual growth throughout the years before Communion; that time of formation, another gift that many do not understand…

You should not have to wait in line to fill out a form and then be drilled and questioned about your understanding of what it is that is being thus poured out to you at no cost! If you want to be baptized to receive Jesus that day, you should never have to wait or pay money. How can any candidate truly understand these Gifts of God that they are receiving without having first received them, by human understanding?! Ha! Let them come by their faith and thus enter into God’s Glory!

John opened up the River of Baptism, Jesus sanctified and blessed the Waters of Baptism, and some have placed a stupid dam up the river! But that is the cause of jealousy I suppose.. They should not be jealous, for most of them are being pruned and pruning has done wonders, they will see. If they question the authority, they can come directly to me and ask me themselves, but warn them that the sword that comes from my mouth can whisk up a blast from the Sun, enough to wipe out all the inner planets even, though the power is mine, I do not and shall not, not until the Earth be restored by the Hand of God. For it is so important that the very moment you are baptized; YOU SHOULD ALSO RECEIVE JESUS in the Eucharistic Sacrament the moment you wipe the water from your face with the towel still over your shoulder, and the day you are Confirmed by the Spirit, that same white towel should be the stole. That day is a great moment of celebration and best delivered at Easter, for the 40 days after Easter serve as the best time to contemplate and experience the joy, the wonder, and the healing Jesus brings through the waters of Baptism and the Holy Eucharist before entering Ascension, you will want to receive this true food every day! During these days of basking in the Lord’s presence, by the very reception of the Most Holy Eucharist, it is a most wonderful and sacred time of reflection and conversation with God and no one else; just you and the Lord after receiving Him. It is truly a Gift no one should ever refuse you (and if it was ever taken away from you, eternally by Grace to you it will be if you so choose)!

There is so much more… after your time of reflection with the Lord, that intimate Communion with Him, when the Trinity is in agreement with you, the Candidate, you will be ready for Confirmation, to confirm and seal the work of and Power of the Holy Spirit manifest through His most powerful Gifts, and discerned during your time of prayer and reflection. Even if you mess up along the way or someone causes you to mess up, reconcile! Reconciliation is available as an integral part of the path to purity, without that, your own perpetual sins will only keep you nailed to that Cross, enter into His Glory instead!

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I have been harmed in this way
I have asked for it not for my sake
But for the sake of others
But never again will I ever ask
To suffer this way, but only if He asks
For I once did it without Him present
To be torn to shreds by demons
And died in a horrible and awful way that I dare even to remember
Even though I wandered off
The Lord still saved me from death
THAT is what amazes me
THAT is love and devotion
To a wretch such as myself
Thinking I can do things on my own
Now I am only a fool for Christ
Hence my deliberation in the Acts

Waiting

I could rent a car or drive my own
Hitch a ride or take a flight
Ride a bike to make things easy

But I would rather walk a long way
Maybe it would take forty days

I suppose the question at this point is
Would it be better to take time or to give it?

Incredible

I made the mistake once
Where I put myself first
Before I entered His Heart
Never again will I ever
While I quickly realized what I had done
I called on Him for Mercy
Oh that Holy Fear came over me
With a repentant heart I gave
One glance is all it took
And a scourge at the pillar to remember
That without Him during His Reign
We are bound to that Cross
Until the thousand years were ended
He knew I was not testing Him
Nor did did He leave me abandoned
Though my Heart gave way at the mere notion
Which Satan neatly planted whilst I was being scourged
Mercy Jesus offers me, again and again
But that look He gave
Sternly He warned

But in a flash just as fast as it came
He flipped me around and pointed to His Heart
And asked Me, “Will you let me guide you the way?”
I said, “”Of course sir, you know I am blind.”
He replied, “I can tell.  Do you want me to heal you?”
I thought about it for a moment and said
“I can see you just fine
Why would I want to see what is out there?”
“To Witness,” He spoke with a Breath of Fire
And gave me a Cup of Water to drink
Thus He Spoke in that Fire and stirred in His Blood
“I shall never die
And neither shall you
For you are bound to me
And I to you”
And I experienced before the Face of God
Humility, and the Humility of the Cross
Most who cannot imagine
Is I embrace that with great Joy
The Gifts He gave
And the Love I was privy to give

So far, I have truly Witnessed
Only Miracles in the Name of the Lord
I do not scoff the disbeliever
For them, I can only pray

So bring on your Fire and Water, Lord
Let the Waters of Baptism in the Name of our Lord
And the Fire of the Spirit of Pentecost
Breathe in Each Other Hallelujah
Such that what comes New
But has also been foretold and foreseen
By His Spirit is this True Glory
That this new Element
Where the Water calms the Fire
And the Fire stirs the Waters
And out comes New Life

That is what happens every time
A new life in the womb is conceived

Amen

In The Kitchen

I stood in the kitchen
It was a rainy day
I made bread with my hands
Made it with love
There was enough for you..

I heard a horn honk outside
I knew it was you
With your cap on your head
Was not until I saw
You bolt as soon as I went
To the window

You did not tell me you were coming over…
Listen to your heart
There is nothing wrong
With knocking at the door

It is you who are playing a game
I know it frustrates you
It is a game I do not play

It matters not, see
For peace will reign
Let us bring it on
Love loves you.. why not?

Inspiration

A quote, from one of my favourite saints… relevance to today is astounding, love one another people, love one another…

You know well enough that our Lord does not look so much at the greatness of our actions, nor even at their difficulty, but at the love with which we do them. 

–Saint Therese of Lisieux

No Longer Me

Why should anyone listen to me?
I’m one of the worst
A wretch in God’s eyes..

Perhaps if you understood
Despite my sins, I have been raised
So I’ll drum up warnings and odes
And fan the sparks into flames
With the breath of the Spirit of the Lord

I am no longer me
I am perfectly empty
To let God reign
And I’m crazy for dying every day
So forgive me if I am crude
Indeed that is what it takes

Startled

I startled awake
Wide awake
In the early morning night
Darkness was there
So was the light
In my heart

My heart I felt beating
Then it stopped
I recall thinking
Finally

But then my Angel came
She always does
Forced it to start again
It beat so hard it hurt
Like a lance was stuck inside
I breathed and sighed
Cause I wanted her to

For You

Very difficult times lay ahead
The Holy Spirit of our Lord
If you have not yet noticed already
Is moving deeply and powerfully
Throughout all His faithful in love
Those who truly love, adore, and believe
I say to you
Believe

Now, We shall breathe His Fire
Set the world on Fire, oh yes
For the love that tastes blood
For the sake of the lost
By His Grace have no fear
For We do not shed blood
That is not our way
We bleed and suffer
Suffer ‘cause we can through Him
No matter what
Did He put up a fight
Before He sacrificed, Himself
And thus died for your sins?

Oh, dancing in Heaven, by the way
Is mostly beyond amazing even
Enticing me to ecstasy every time I think of it
But I resist, I resist so much an experience I have had once, so badly
But I can’t go just yet, there’s always hope of a certain love
I’m just wondering if it’ll be
Before or after that day I proclaimed

Cause right now, my legs are beckoning me to run
Run as fast as I fucking can
But I will stay as long as it takes ’cause I have to
For you

Simplest Way

How else can I say
Something to convey
In the simplest way
Guidance to obey

Listen and pray
Do not be afraid
Your will every day
God’s will be done today

Why do you disobey
Your creator this way?
You’re all so happy today
To be totally screwed in the end

Still Time

I’ve discerned the truth
I’m happy that the ignorance
The rejection
The disbelief
Of what is written by Christ
Inflicts on me for His sake
So many times this happens
I intentionally lost count
To carry the burden of that scorn
Not you
No matter what

I would finish this now
But there is still time left
The cries for justice ring clear
Just be ready, my dear