I changed the moment I caused you pain
But my life in parallel is demanding more rain
I turned to you to speak of God’s wonders
Which were twisted and turned into blunders
I felt the suffering of the all the dead
Ready to be raised up as He said
Month: April 2023
Never Forgotten
Nobody recognized me because I died, I fell
Spent two thousand years in the depths of Hell
Then I was split with the decision
That caused your division
So I climbed out from the depths
From that place of eternal deaths
Revealed yet invisible
But here to love if you are able
Another thousand years to go
It will be swift and never slow
I saw the future and it is good
If you know how to look under the hood
But before things can get better
You must all break the iron fetter
It holds you captive by it’s power
And there is always some damn tower
Lo, my memory is never forgotten
No matter how small it can always be done
As it is in Heaven so shall it be on Earth
Then our Lord will show you your worth
My own memories fade as I sacrifice
In truth, only love shall suffice
No need to show me you love me back
My heart knows what you lack
I give what I can, saying here I am
Learned the lesson of the Ram
Honoured with great Love and begotten
I send over to you so you are never forgotten
True
You crafted a song
That made a throng
Jump for joy and adore
Only yourself, so I implore
Bring yourself around to look
And forgive what was forsook
So give Jesus the praise that is due
Nothing like what I went through
For His followers are imperfect disruptors
Messing things up including what is yours
But His power is unshakeable perfection
No matter how much He gets attention
He will change the world and be their Judge
Gently reminding you of your daily grudge
But when all has been gathered and done
It is He and I who are One
For the Trinity speaks thrice Holy for an eternity
And from His mouth a certain simplicity
Of commands that bend iron rods
And turning them into gods
I stand on both hallowed and cursed ground
Cooling down I become a bridge so sound
His Fire bends and burns my will to His own
His Breath cools and soothes what was sown
My Heart beats to His love and tune
For so many things I am am immune
But sometimes the Lord lets one through
His gentle kindness is always true
Don’t Remember
Don’t remember what I wrote
It was me that turned and spoke
To let that lie pass my lips
Bearing only pain on all those trips
Don’t remember being there with you
It was me that wished this was true
As my delusions gain more and more power
Watch me open up like a flower
I have held back so long I have lost
God only knows the price I paid and cost
Those that love are not my mission
Having only ever lived under contrition
So where I went nobody cared or followed
The ground I walked was not tread nor hallowed
Enduring only suffering and pain so grand
I have to say that this was planned
Know that what I endured out of love for you
Was for the miracles that change you
Now I am above everything I can possibly see
Poured it out once again times three
I felt it pierce my heart, that note
Elevating me up to Heaven and now I float
To dance to your tune I found
Something, ever so profound
Sing any song I love from your heart
Reveal my intentions from the start
Truth does not want to stay hidden
And it defines what is forbidden
Dead Looking
I can feel the dead looking right at me
Expecting the impossible from me
I gave all my powers away for you
Now I have so very little so true
But what I do have I have not yet received
With nothing to show for it, feeling deceived
I can see the futures that never come to be
Mourning the loss of what was once free
With every movement led by grace
His Love I have witnessed face to face
Lifting up hope like the dawn’s new light
Standing up and fighting for what is right
Undertaking
The pain and suffering I bear is all for you
Wish you understood this inundates me through
Relief to my suffering will come soon
Watch for me as I am over the moon
Where God lets me go
I supplant evil in its place so
With all the authority granted me
I wish you could see
But the rate at which things change
Yesterday is no longer in range
The moment forward is now and unrelenting
Fast and fastened and quite the undertaking
Certain Power
Yes indeed I have certain power
More powerful than any Tower
Stronger than the written word
As in the order I am third
In truth, I am meant to be last
In the race and in the fast
Never wanting to be first
His Sacred Blood quenching my thirst
So many things have been forgotten
Thrown away like it was something rotten
Stripped away like it was some disease
When it fact they really threw away the keys
This Bloody Body
Still all alone and all by my lonesome
In my heart those strings did you strum
Making me long for you more than I should
Nobody cares if I fade away like I could
Oh so much of this pain cuts so very deep
Knowing full well the whole truth, I weep
So I stand up anyway this bloody body
Amidst all this suffering I embody
Nobody is qualified to help me deal with
The spiritual trauma that’s not a myth
Demons slashing and clawing away non-stop
But somehow in the end I come out on top
Whether they are real or not the trauma is there
I have already fired the flare
Calling for a rescue as I am damaged and old
I am no longer amidst the flock or fold
On the outside and observing the pain
Caused by those in Christ’s name
The same name that raised me from the dead
I was nothing I did or said
I was chosen from among you to suffer for you
With the rewards yet to be revealed and true
So I go out amidst the outcasts and lost
They are so much more valuable than your cost
Lives with wrinkles and tears are heard
Loneliness fears are never dismissed as absurd
In their eyes are sparks of love glittering
To ignite the flames of love they are waiting
Direction
My loneliness is of my own construction
Meant to distance myself from everyone
So I have left behind a puzzle to solve
Not to mention the record of my resolve
I looked into my own eyes to record my feelings
Saw the pain I have written on the glass ceilings
Left the action to those who have the fight
What is at stake is right within the plight
Now on a dangerous and perilous Journey
Toward the final days before I bend my knee
Defying darkness and evil with every step I take
Rewards from Heaven above I rake
Like a reaper I sampled the harvest to see
And separated the chaff by the way to be
Burned them before the world’s very eyes
For it was written, their demise
Addiction
Addiction is not my problem
I need to numb the pain
The pain you caused
By dismissing what I most readily guarded
My right to reveal
The desperate need
That wants me to feed
What you complain about
Does not compare to this pout
I can drink myself under the table
Yet I can OD and not even feel it
What I have to deal with are not delusions
It is about the right to identity
But being denied at every level possible
Making me believe I should give it up and die away
But I warned it would be like a thief I would come
Ready to crush the world under the weight
While I deflect that which will bring you rest
Not what I want but how else to obtain what is best?
A voice broken and ashamed
Humiliated in public and everything gained
No more coincidences
For the incidences
Not to mention my anger and thirst for vengeance
I have so much to hold this world against
You would not believe the worldwide enterprise
Designed to imprison and enslave amidst the lies
Conspire
Heard of and felt the pain you bear
I repeat myself often and my heart will tear
A hole open to reveal a secret
Up to you whether to reveal it
The conviction of my faith in the Lord
Is stronger now despite being floored
My faith in my sister and brother
Has faltered into a weakness that I turned over
Wrought with all the suffering of this age
Here I am trying to set the stage
Dead I am to you yet I breathe life
Despite being troubled with so much strife
But with the same breath I breathe fire
To destroy the depths of what you conspire
Waiting for the dead of tomorrow
To bring news of the truth to follow
Insult
Told you the truth from behind a veil
Which filtered the part of pain that would pale
Allowing me to save you from the horror
By bearing the Cross of the Restorer
The culmination of the love and mercy
Has me pleading from the depths and urgency
It is in the silence I will endure the fight
Until my death echoes in the night
But not until things have been set right
For many are still in quite a plight
As you plundered my heart of all the riches
But I still have the treasure, bitches
Bear It All
Let me bear the pain and the sorrow
Let me bear the disease of tomorrow
Let me bear your lies and hate
Surely to this end I know your fate
Nothing can take away this love and feeling
Breaking free from those who are shackling
So now I am learning from God alone yet daily
What I now know you would not believe plainly
Some would say that this is the diseases talking
If it had a voice would you not be listening?
But this voice I have has not been heard
This way is the only way that is not absurd
Over the years I gently warned you all
Of the pending doom and fall
Now on the precipice of the final call
Let us hope that you are now standing tall
To the end I will have survived
Every time I will be revived
So let love reign in your heart and see
We are nothing without it to forever be
Worn
I squeeze out of my very own heart
As much as I can give to start
The beats get heavier and worn
Not this time am I forlorn
With a deep sigh of love on my forehead
I give my hope and peace to you instead
For I want to blame someone for what is wrong
When instead I should be with you in song
Deepest Pain
I hear and feel your deepest pain
Of loneliness and fear and disdain
Tearing me up inside and out
There is nothing here to flout
Having seen the future beyond what you predict
Those raised from the dead spilling the secret
Granted certain powers never before seen
A new way of living in union we have been
My sword has cut deep and wide
Has me censored from the many, I must confide
But that does nothing to the pure connection
I have between my God and His invention
Love kindles kindness and joy
The unworthy will cringe at it like some ploy
Become worthy by confessing and repenting
Again and again, my anger I am relenting
Deified with Honour
I can always taste the victory
Having already won the favour and war
There is a beat to every rhyme
There is a rhyme of love to every life
When I honour God I pour myself out
Leaving me nothing but devout
But the world holds all the keys
Except the key to death
The one inevitable thing that they fear
For where do the dead really go
If they are truly gone
If but a forgotten memory
From a time so very empty
How can they be remembered?
Whose memory fulfills their own?
So I have come down to bring this fire
To burn away impurities inside and out
To prove that God will intervene and already has
For who has the key to life beyond death?
Their insatiable desire for immortality without God
They cannot see beyond their own desire
Truth be told, deification has already come
But only to those who are lost, lame, and cast out
The ones you crucified because of hate
For in every life there is love
No excuse to shove
I hiked the mountain of immortality with God
United unto Christ I left a trail of bloody footprints
At the peak I looked around and saw
Many Christs leading and doing the same thing
Hiking the mountain of immortality with God
Now I have spoken of my reality
So I remain hidden for now, expecting
My beliefs are an echo of the future
For the future is that divinity reigns
A certain unshakeable faith to resolve
For the portal to deification is the Cross
So go ahead, crucify me again
Hallowed Sorrow
I am riddled with suffering and pain
And there is something here to gain
But as loneliness settles in
No one cares about who I am within
Drenched in the hallowed sorrow
Over what happens tomorrow
Never got your number as I am all alone
No one to call upon on the phone
My anguish is right here beside me
Bleeding unto those around me
My trembling hands are revealing
A torment whilst I am appealing
My appeal despite this awful pain
Is that you are spared going down the drain
For what I saw was truly horrific
Many lives lost no matter what they pick
A Prophet Scorned 