Month: November 2019

I have to let her go
As tears streak my face
She wants nothing to do with me
As indicated by her inability
All I needed was a yes or no
But was bludgeoned with silence
Silence from the very beginning

So I stayed and I prayed
Remembered Love
And found her here in my heart all along
Though her love is strong
Beyond anything this world has shown
I saw our two hearts as one
Now from my heart she will not hide

But the world is cruel and unkind
Has driven Love itself into the desert
And from there I will prophecy
Prophecy unlike before
Where mother nature will have her way
Unless you repent
But no one listens anyway

So enjoy the show
As the earth is subdued into mighty shakes

I had been stripped
Stripped for wanting help
I had been held
Held captive for my beliefs
Behind closed doors in secret
They planned my demise
But my trust was in the Lord
And in my guardian angel
And He delivered me
From the hands of my enemies
Delivered me from certain death
Not once but many times

So here is to a wonderful God
Who grants all this
To the worst ever wretch
You will have ever seen

See
Hidden behind the one way mirrors
I told them the truth with faith
Now it has all come to pass

Now they leave me alone

If I have not posted in a while
It means the poems are in a pile
Unworthy of public consumption
Or just really really bad gumption

I write dozens a day
Sometimes more
Only a few make it this way
Saving the best for another day

But you my love
I made you feel guilty
For all my bad feelings
When all I really needed was a hug

You are thousands of miles away
In the desert I have strayed
Now I am just as lost
As you are

Your silence is unbearable
As it crushes me under water
Like a thick and heavy weight
On my chest keeping me under

That is how it is
So I bore it the best, I dd
Letting me let you go
Remembering you always

So let me remember you
Before I forget
By posting my heart’s desires
Even though you would rather I be dead

Augment my love
For you my Lord
For all people
Sacred Heart of Jesus
Have Mercy

Repeat

What else can I say?
You make my heart flutter
When I think of you
So there is no telling
How my heart will behave
When I am near you

Though the flutters may fade
I decided to love you instead
Brandishing curiosity
Encountering intimacy
Delivering poetry
Thinking of you

Where to go from here?
I hope you are not stuck in the mud
The absence of your presence
Tears me apart to tears
With every step I take
Not in concert with yours

Then there was silence
But the heart continues on
In it’s song it resounds
A song of heavenly praise
A Grand Alleluia
Shook my eyes to tears

I posted a revelation
Hoping to reach every nation
Jealous are their hearts
So I slipped away in the dark

Even in the darkness
There is only Light
To Gloriously shine
His Love I am

I write by iteration
Listen by locution
These words are for you
I am a simple instrument

To be one with God
Is to be in complete submission to His Will
If it be His will I live alone in a desert for a thousand years
So be it

Maybe the world will have changed by then
Maybe I am so disgusted with the world
That I have already entered that desert
Simply outlive you all, I Will

But I love you so much
To miss you would hurt
And a lost opportunity
To pour out God’s Love

So I decided to stay
You make my heart sway
In the winds of love
I live

When I am alone
I am never lonely
When I am lonely
I am never alone

I wonder about love
Why the hard hearts
I wonder about you
Why the silent shouts

I tried my best
Been put to the test
Barely passed
I came in last

I do not know why
God chose me to say
Christ has come
Rejoice and be glad
Come to Him in the Eucharist
Be one with Him
And He will reveal Himself

For I am a wretched sinner
Unbelievably undeserving
But granted nonetheless
A life of Eternal loving

My stake in this is high
In the desert
Life is nigh

Truly I tell you
When He did reveal Himself to a man
In all His Glory
The man was so frightened
He ran away with a stumble
Out of fear his beliefs crumbled

For his heart was a stone
No blood coursing through his veins
No understanding
Not even prepared
Asleep with no oil in His lamp

As obtained by evidence
Life is precious and fenced

If a brief revelation of His Glory
Does that to just one man
I cannot imagine what it would do
To the entire earth if all of Heaven came down

But with Christ by my side
Never leaving me or without me
His Mercy is a welcome gift
Considering I was once like that man
So for you there is always hope

Christ Returned somewhere between 1994 and 2003. Nobody knows what day. Not even the Son knows, only the Father. Which does not makes any sense at all.

I have the evidence I need contained in a book written by Christ Himself which enjoys a Nihil Obstat and imprimatur in the Catholic Church but my evidence will be rejected by the many with cold and stone hearts whose interest is only themselves.

I gave up trying to figure out when exactly Christ returned as that thought moved immediately to the backburner because He is already here and is not happy with how things are. The fact that no one, I repeat no one acknowledged Him to His face but rather hated Him instead. Others were simply blinded because their sin produced scales over their eyes and then there are those who are asleep, who are still sleeping. Wake up! Do not bother trying to look for Him. If he wants to stay hidden, if it be God’s will you will never see Him.

I can say Christ has returned
But I will NOT tell you where
If you want to know the truth
You can only know by revelation
And Revelation has come

Amen

I brushed the waves to the shore
And scraped the shallow water
Over the canvas of love

But as the waves crash
And tsunamis last
I shake my head as does the earth

I love you
I need you
I found you
Or did you find me?

A glance is all I need
A glance all I received
I knew the moment I saw you
You who are always in my dreams

I looked and I looked
You vanished forever
Refused to return my messages
Or you never got them

I pried open my heart
Letting the deluge of poetry
Saturate your inbox
Yet you never responded

Not once
Not ever
I love you forever
Even if you do not want to

So I made myself vulnerable
Made myself unequal
A wretch indeed
Do not follow me

You took to the skies
My poems you despise
No matter how many tries
Seven hundred more on the rise

I am so happy to be with you Jesus
Your words bring joy to my heart
My exclamations and songs go on unheard
Oh how I wish she were here to hear it

I take my time to announce
But the world goes on unbewildered
So forgive me Lord
My fruits are few

Let the truth of what goes on in secret
Be revealed in a great reveal
To show people that God means business
When it comes to promises to His Kin

I know my place in God’s Kingdom
Among these I am the Least
So be kind to your neighbour
What is so difficult about loving them?

Oh God my beloved lover
Feels like it did before
Pray for the Kingdom
Pray for the reveal
Jesus is King
Love has returned

At the other end of these poems
Is just one person
But a person nonetheless

A person who suffers
At the hands of his enemies
Belittling him to the brink of death

Despite his futile attempts
And many there have been
He still stands today

I grieve not for myself
I grieve for those who are blind

Your hearts are so cold
Might I be so bold
To actually ask you
Why are you so blue?
To warm up your heart
That is a good place to start

I know
You do not love me
Your heart told me so
When I asked
Do you love me?

I still love you
Though you are lost
I still need you
Though I have everything

Your love is still
Worth fighting for
As it is for all
So be mere imitators of love
And watch the world change
All the way around you

I remember

The doors that were closed
Open wide the doors to Christ!
But their rejection of me
Slammed their door on my face!
I still love them
And forgive them
Even though abuse is their response

I was there in spirit and love
When John Paul II
Opened them on the Jubilee
I can tell you he was hoping
Hoping that Christ would appear
Would appear on the other side

Generous love
Would have delivered Him
To your very doors

But as it is
Love is missing in your world
And my heart is full of it

Peace