Forward Looking

I spread out my life before God’s Holy Altar
Entered into His Love without falter
Said to the Lord, look at my life forward and back
Judge me and my life now and do not look back

Let me live my life with my mistakes and all
Let love live and thrive deep within for all
No matter what the world throws at us
We live in the New Heaven despite the fuss

So feel the heat and the fire
What to do now, do I conspire?
To turn every heart to love
Instead of the wars they like to shove


No longer do I feel compelled to write
All that is left is for me to deal smite
Worthless and insignificant I am to you
But where I am from, this is not true

In truth, I am the weakest of all of us
Dragged through the ground with no fuss
Tortured and suffered for all your sakes
But it was grace alone that kept the stakes

I am impoverished for I have nothing to give you
I am all alone for I am nothing to you
I am also dead for I can see the dead
I am dread for I can deliver what I said

This Rhyme

All I have got for you is this rhyme
You would have said about damn time
Your love before me
Believe me

I came down in His image, amazing
Left a bunch of messages you’re not returning
All the shit you have to wade through
Not one more of those crazy bastards too

I was once locked up against my will
For believing in things I saw that thrill
Told them there would be a reckoning
So they let me go to die but I am still living

In my hands is the whole world so true
Anything to it i can do
Without permission, approval or bend
I can unleash the four corners and thus the end

I have proven only to myself that I am holy
To keep quiet and live my remaining days lonely
Every demon before me destroyed or defeated
Something I do not want repeated

Too many have shut up and run away
When I still have so much to really say
But truth and lies over eons is forgotten
And death has no power over the begotten


I felt the weight of your silence
When I bore my heart for all to see
Nobody noticed or cared who I was
When I died because of love
My dreams were shattered
And my hopes were dashed
My heart bursting out of my chest
I drank the anger and the angst
And lived the suffering and the pain
For love compels me to suffer unbeknownst to you
I died in the darkness so you do not have to
And felt the daggers in my back from betrayal
I endured the ridicule and the mockery
So be careful who you mock, you see
God does not deal lightly
With those who choose to mock His Own


When I look deep within I find myself
Alone with God and that is it
If I do nothing, I keep Him captive
If I do His Will, He is free

Being one with Christ is simple
Surrender your own will to His
And He will not account for your sins
For His Name will be all over yours

No accusation will ever stand
Making you indistinguishable from Him
Before birth and after death
Raised with Him on a whim

Forever locked in a glorious domain
No way to die before immortality
Knowing what is in store by fate’s own design
Written in the Universe is God’s divine plan

I read the book that upon it is written all of life
Knowing my own destiny, it is love that awaits
The end is not the end you propose
But is an act of love to save all from the throes

Seven Years

Seven years have passed away
Since I walked in from the fray
Nothing more new to say
Only God do I obey

I told them all from beyond the light
Upon a throne of Glory made to fight
It was Jesus who gave us this Power
Driven by Faith just like any other power

Riveted by the madness within
Matters not if the ice is thin
I traverse unharmed in constant glory
Wait until you hear the whole story

It is always a clear sky above the rain
I really do not mind the pain
While truth lives in me like a parade
Time for me to swing the blade


I can feel the disbelief pour all over me
Like hot wax unexpectedly
Palpable and just as intense
Do not think it is just some sense

Like a slipstream silver lined with light
I am a god with Him as my image alright
I boast because I must anonymously
To shatter misimpressions swiftly

I see the whole world as a few whispers away
Whisper away and listen to what they say
For the Spirit of the Whisper by His power
Will reach the hearts that cower

My message is one of hope and love
Appearing sometimes as the Dove
I keep losing them over time
Because I do not answer their prayers in time

So whisper only truth with a warm heart
Spread the word on fire from the start
That Love has come into the world
Just like you, in God’s lap I curled

To Forgive

It seems to me that you are going too fast
Patiently you must advance in haste to get past
God grant you absolution to move on past
That difficult memory of hurt all aghast

When I died I could have stood aside
Watch it all burn down to nothing I confide
But under the ashes remain the foundation
That will last an eternity beyond any nation

Learn the foundation and learn to live
It will be everything for love that you will give
Advancing in glory towards the inevitable end
My love to you do I send

Forevermore, I love in return
On this you must discern
What she sung when she broke the record
It was really about the magnificence of our Lord

Love them though they would never come back
Let them go then they are the ones who lack
Forgiveness instead of revenge is the way
Now I do not have any more new to say

Rhymes and Prayers

It is one thing to pray a prayer that rhymes
It is another to live in the prayer at all times
Prayers are for those who pray and for love
Prayers are private and perfect for the Lord above

I saw them all, ancient and new, young and old
And everything in between that was foretold
All of them love the Lord and give their due
Granted the graces they inquire what is true

Something amazing poured out from their heart
Miracles one after another from the very start
So I lean on He who is to come always
He leans on me sometimes never parting ways

I asked for a sign and was reminded of my love
Words of affirmation came from Heaven above
Delighting of course in His Second Coming
A Return of Love for Love however endearing

It is interesting what time will do to a Nation
That allowance of the degradation of perfection
That echo of humanity throughout the cosmos
And nothing appropriate rhymes with cosmos

Heaven on Earth is already here I must say
The last to close the door it will be forever on the day
That Glory shone from above to the whole world
It was the Spirit of the Lord that whirled

Raised Up

I changed the moment I caused you pain
But my life in parallel is demanding more rain
I turned to you to speak of God’s wonders
Which were twisted and turned into blunders
I felt the suffering of the all the dead
Ready to be raised up as He said

Never Forgotten

Nobody recognized me because I died, I fell
Spent two thousand years in the depths of Hell
Then I was split with the decision
That caused your division

So I climbed out from the depths
From that place of eternal deaths
Revealed yet invisible
But here to love if you are able

Another thousand years to go
It will be swift and never slow
I saw the future and it is good
If you know how to look under the hood

But before things can get better
You must all break the iron fetter
It holds you captive by it’s power
And there is always some damn tower

Lo, my memory is never forgotten
No matter how small it can always be done
As it is in Heaven so shall it be on Earth
Then our Lord will show you your worth

My own memories fade as I sacrifice
In truth, only love shall suffice
No need to show me you love me back
My heart knows what you lack

I give what I can, saying here I am
Learned the lesson of the Ram
Honoured with great Love and begotten
I send over to you so you are never forgotten


You crafted a song
That made a throng
Jump for joy and adore
Only yourself, so I implore

Bring yourself around to look
And forgive what was forsook
So give Jesus the praise that is due
Nothing like what I went through

For His followers are imperfect disruptors
Messing things up including what is yours
But His power is unshakeable perfection
No matter how much He gets attention

He will change the world and be their Judge
Gently reminding you of your daily grudge
But when all has been gathered and done
It is He and I who are One

For the Trinity speaks thrice Holy for an eternity
And from His mouth a certain simplicity
Of commands that bend iron rods
And turning them into gods

I stand on both hallowed and cursed ground
Cooling down I become a bridge so sound
His Fire bends and burns my will to His own
His Breath cools and soothes what was sown

My Heart beats to His love and tune
For so many things I am am immune
But sometimes the Lord lets one through
His gentle kindness is always true

Don’t Remember

Don’t remember what I wrote
It was me that turned and spoke
To let that lie pass my lips
Bearing only pain on all those trips

Don’t remember being there with you
It was me that wished this was true
As my delusions gain more and more power
Watch me open up like a flower

I have held back so long I have lost
God only knows the price I paid and cost
Those that love are not my mission
Having only ever lived under contrition

So where I went nobody cared or followed
The ground I walked was not tread nor hallowed
Enduring only suffering and pain so grand
I have to say that this was planned

Know that what I endured out of love for you
Was for the miracles that change you
Now I am above everything I can possibly see
Poured it out once again times three

I felt it pierce my heart, that note
Elevating me up to Heaven and now I float
To dance to your tune I found
Something, ever so profound

Sing any song I love from your heart
Reveal my intentions from the start
Truth does not want to stay hidden
And it defines what is forbidden

Dead Looking

I can feel the dead looking right at me
Expecting the impossible from me
I gave all my powers away for you
Now I have so very little so true

But what I do have I have not yet received
With nothing to show for it, feeling deceived
I can see the futures that never come to be
Mourning the loss of what was once free

With every movement led by grace
His Love I have witnessed face to face
Lifting up hope like the dawn’s new light
Standing up and fighting for what is right


The pain and suffering I bear is all for you
Wish you understood this inundates me through
Relief to my suffering will come soon
Watch for me as I am over the moon

Where God lets me go
I supplant evil in its place so
With all the authority granted me
I wish you could see

But the rate at which things change
Yesterday is no longer in range
The moment forward is now and unrelenting
Fast and fastened and quite the undertaking

Certain Power

Yes indeed I have certain power
More powerful than any Tower
Stronger than the written word
As in the order I am third

In truth, I am meant to be last
In the race and in the fast
Never wanting to be first
His Sacred Blood quenching my thirst

So many things have been forgotten
Thrown away like it was something rotten
Stripped away like it was some disease
When it fact they really threw away the keys

This Bloody Body

Still all alone and all by my lonesome
In my heart those strings did you strum
Making me long for you more than I should
Nobody cares if I fade away like I could

Oh so much of this pain cuts so very deep
Knowing full well the whole truth, I weep
So I stand up anyway this bloody body
Amidst all this suffering I embody

Nobody is qualified to help me deal with
The spiritual trauma that’s not a myth
Demons slashing and clawing away non-stop
But somehow in the end I come out on top

Whether they are real or not the trauma is there
I have already fired the flare
Calling for a rescue as I am damaged and old
I am no longer amidst the flock or fold

On the outside and observing the pain
Caused by those in Christ’s name
The same name that raised me from the dead
I was nothing I did or said

I was chosen from among you to suffer for you
With the rewards yet to be revealed and true
So I go out amidst the outcasts and lost
They are so much more valuable than your cost

Lives with wrinkles and tears are heard
Loneliness fears are never dismissed as absurd
In their eyes are sparks of love glittering
To ignite the flames of love they are waiting


My loneliness is of my own construction
Meant to distance myself from everyone
So I have left behind a puzzle to solve
Not to mention the record of my resolve

I looked into my own eyes to record my feelings
Saw the pain I have written on the glass ceilings
Left the action to those who have the fight
What is at stake is right within the plight

Now on a dangerous and perilous Journey
Toward the final days before I bend my knee
Defying darkness and evil with every step I take
Rewards from Heaven above I rake

Like a reaper I sampled the harvest to see
And separated the chaff by the way to be
Burned them before the world’s very eyes
For it was written, their demise


Addiction is not my problem
I need to numb the pain
The pain you caused
By dismissing what I most readily guarded
My right to reveal
The desperate need
That wants me to feed
What you complain about
Does not compare to this pout
I can drink myself under the table
Yet I can OD and not even feel it
What I have to deal with are not delusions
It is about the right to identity
But being denied at every level possible
Making me believe I should give it up and die away
But I warned it would be like a thief I would come
Ready to crush the world under the weight
While I deflect that which will bring you rest
Not what I want but how else to obtain what is best?
A voice broken and ashamed
Humiliated in public and everything gained
No more coincidences
For the incidences
Not to mention my anger and thirst for vengeance
I have so much to hold this world against
You would not believe the worldwide enterprise
Designed to imprison and enslave amidst the lies


Heard of and felt the pain you bear
I repeat myself often and my heart will tear
A hole open to reveal a secret
Up to you whether to reveal it

The conviction of my faith in the Lord
Is stronger now despite being floored
My faith in my sister and brother
Has faltered into a weakness that I turned over

Wrought with all the suffering of this age
Here I am trying to set the stage
Dead I am to you yet I breathe life
Despite being troubled with so much strife

But with the same breath I breathe fire
To destroy the depths of what you conspire
Waiting for the dead of tomorrow
To bring news of the truth to follow