I wish I liked pain
It happens every day
Today is worse
Like nails in my spine
While swallowing hammers them in
Makes me want to vomit
Maybe I should slit my wrists
Cause my “loved ones”
Deprive me of pain relief
Because they feel nothing
Tag: poetry
Moments of You
There are more moments
In my life than not
While thinking of me I am not
But rather of you
Why you
Matters not
Selfish I am not
But in what way
Whatever love is
I would give my life away
Instead He gave me His
In His favour did I convey
A hater I am not
So be bold with your blessings
And I will be bold in my love
That is how you will find me
Says He
But you can find me anywhere
Says He
In the least did we embrace
Kept from love
Of a certain kind
I know and believe in all truth
Sincerity
That I am not
Jesus Christ
But rather one embodied
In the Spirit of Christ
Through the mystical union
Of a certain Sacrifice
The one sacrifice that takes all
For it takes a certain kind of prayer
A prayer of thanksgiving
A prayer of struggle and sacrifice
A prayer of blessings upon the littlest ones
But to those who know of these little ones
If you bless, they will bless
If you curse, they will curse
Woe to you should you curse
Bless instead, trust me
It gets easier
When it reflects in the actions you do
Time to get your hearts in the right place
Believe me
Believe in Love
Forgive
Sons of Thunder
Did you hear the thunder?
Did you hear it that day?
Did you know?
That it was to call James and John
Together
So the earth shattered echoes with a boom
None felt the wiser
Now love thunders
For the Sons of Thunder
Are Sons of Love
Persecuted on all fronts
I have taken an account
Of actions against me
Persecution on all fronts
Accountant says
That no love exists
Except from a minor few
But those lacking it
Those slacking it
I always forgive
Despite the call
For destruction
That looms from above
Gone
Last one
No more will I write
No more will I pour
My heart as I have done
I opened up in many forms
Let my soul wrapped in flame
Stake a claim
But I stood all alone
When love stood before me
I have seen too much to deny
Felt too little from others
To hate this world so much
Believing in a mystery
I could say you won the battle
But what will you lose
When I am gone?
… I never wanted to say I told you so
Amen
Amen every day
We Live
Amen
Come to Me
I have been told
By many and few
To not dwell on the past
It appears we have no past
And therefore no future
But there is one thing about me
You should know
I love absolutely everyone
And bear their pain or disease
If they passed me by
Turning me into
A hypochondriac
According to science
However, I do not complain
But offer it up to God
He then takes it away from them
If that is what he wants
For it is written
He shall bear their suffering
Your heart is so far away
Remember That
He said pray that it not be winter
On that day for you
O that day of wrath
So then He took Winter for Himself
Upon Himself be bore
For me and you
How did he do?
So far, alive
And heartbeats are like a Harley
Listening to that song that boomed
Made me remember
Remember, that Jesus is King
No matter what happens
No matter what
Power To Give
I had hoped
Hoped that by now
Those who truly love
Would step up
But they did not
I had hoped
Hoped that by now
Those who love to love
Would do so
Without question
But they also did not
This includes myself!
As it is your faith and love
Reflecting through me
As I am merely nothing
Yet
I Am Who I Am
But you
You are also nothing
Did nothing
And hid
So from one breath
I can blow you away
Like a hurricane
As it is in my power to give
Though I prefer the Love path
Either way I can lead you there
Your choice…
What Makes Me Ill
What makes me ill
Is not your diseases or viruses
But your lack of compassion
That the least are driven asunder
By your inflated sense of righteousness
I Am is among the least
Bearing the worst of it all
That is what makes me ill
Know that when I am ill
Angels come to my aid
I Love My Own Art
How could I not love
My own art?
If it be of my love
If it be of my hate
It is my art all the same
So let me be the worst of all
That is how I appear to them
But I can bear anything
Including death
Including hate
Including pain
Yet live
Because of Love
Love loves you
And
I learned
To let Love love me deep
So I do yearn for more
Only Love I give
Nothing in return is bestowed
That makes me the least
As I am still and can weep
But do not gnash my teeth
Peace
Amen
Open Up I Did As Moses
Jesus and I
I open my heart
My heart beats like a drum
That tore a hole from a spear
And I sighed
Because I knew right away
It was Eternal Life
My God
That Spear
Was worse than the nails
Every day
Presence
The presence of God does not end
Especially at the Eucharist
For the Host Most Holy
Is the beginning and the end
May the Lord of Hosts
Lead you to
His Presence
In one another
In the Universe
In you
Loss 2
First some perspective
Feeling ostracized
Is no different
Than the death of a loved one
However to the one left alone
All their loved ones died
Such that without love
There truly is nothing left
But when poustiniks pray
They should remember the forgotten
Before they lose themselves
The joy is only found
When the pain is offered
We found it together
Through the cross
Through the death
Through the resurrection
Amen
Just A Tree
A tree is just a tree
Until it is taken down
And used as decoration
Or a cross
Either way blessings and love
This one has little angels on it
O What A Day
What a day of love
Despite evil afflictions
O what a day of love
When sanctification came our way
O what a day of joy
When salvation came as a child
Had we known they would crucify him
Would we have kept him hidden?
Some things are kept hidden
In plain view for you
Yet a True Life in God we live
And undeserving of every reward
The reward that Jesus promised he did
Oh my heart beats like his own
Deification comes
It comes sooner than you expect
Do pray out of love
O what a day of love
My heart sings it true
Whole Host
I had a vision today
I was before the Throne of God
That was surrounded by all the Saints
Surrounded by all the Angels
I appeared before all of Heaven
And the whole host cheered with praise
I felt unworthy
I was nothing before the Lord
The Throne was empty before I appeared
So I asked the Lord for His Presence
The Almighty Father appeared and He was also Jesus
I prostrated myself before Him
Saw His Feet and asked
Am I worthy to untie your sandals
He said, “You are”
As I removed first His left sandal
I saw His wounds
The scabs were large so I wept tears of Joy
At the worthiness He gave
I kissed his feet and my tears flowed
Onto His feet
As untied His right sandal
My tears flowed onto the wound from the nail
And the wound started to shrink and heal
Lit to Cry
My heart is going to cry
My heart has dipped into the sky
It broke open and let out the light
That light the lit the water to wine
Santa is a false god
**** Spoiler Alert ****
I remember
When Christmas Eve
Was full of wonder and belief
At the birth of Jesus – a baby
Not just a baby
But God made fragile divine
Yes, fragile
Which it is why Santa’s foot
Crushed the stable
Before the warm hearth
And the world celebrated it
Celebrated destruction
That is not love
Your sin is letting this false god
Prey on the greed of children
Turning them into heathens
Because they were all lied to
And continue to be
So the Mother of God
Took her child and flew
Away from this apostasy
To crush the head of Satan
Once and for all
AMEN
Wondering at
My prophesying has been tested
My prophecies have come to pass
I am nobody really
Just a lower case alpha and omega
Remember, there is always mercy
Ask for grace Our Lord will give it
If wrath comes
It was because of your ignorance
Not because of my warnings
My eyes are growing dim
Which means the time is very near
As the lack of love
Allows for a thick blanket of death
For the asleep
A New Heaven and New Earth await
What are you waiting for?
A Prophet Scorned 
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