Jesus is the greatest
His Mercy is the fastest
His Love is beyond measure
Steadfast and fully sure
I am absolutely the least
Unable to celebrate the feast
My love broken and defeated
By how badly I have been treated
But I continue on in the Lord
Have to swing this double edged sword
Beware of what comes next
You might just find yourself hexed
With every breath
With every move
With every sigh, cry, and yell
I reel in pain, agony, and joy
I am meant to suffer
To suffer for you
And there is nothing you can do about it
But reap
I wish I liked pain
It happens every day
Today is worse
Like nails in my spine
While swallowing hammers them in
Makes me want to vomit
Maybe I should slit my wrists
Cause my “loved ones”
Deprive me of pain relief
Because they feel nothing
If it is all in my head
I want to be dead
Because I am that anyway
To you and to them
So I will fade away
Echoing what only remains
That is what you and they want
Is it not?
Alas, I am trampled on by hate
With a looming disconnected date
That this is the worst possible way
To get attention
But I never wanted the attention
I only wanted to live to love and be loved
So I lived to the former
Was skimped on the latter
I will not stamp and rage
But quietly fade away…
It is the sacrifice of self
Which leads to abandonment of self
To Almighty God through Jesus Christ
Breaking the cycle of death and suffering
Buddha almost had it right…
A Prophet Scorned 