Category: Journal

I am Grace. Peace is with me. Christ has lowered Himself to me, though I do not deserve it, for I am indeed the least of all because the Lord revealed that I am the least deserving of this Gift, no one deserves it. I have been completely emptied and I know nothing else but Christ.  With that comes His Glory – His Awesome Glory – For Christ to become me and myself become him, this is truly my deepest and greatest desire, words cannot convey His Gaze into me and the Lord has indeed done so, continues to do so, and will always do so until the Day.

To the world from the Almighty Father:  “Were it that you were all united, even in your wretchedness, you would be living in an utopia, but your division, your sin, causes you to fall again and again.  Even such a world, should it ever exist, created by man would only serve to glorify man, therefore how much more will I give you and Glorify Myself when I lower down to you My New Jerusalem!”

The many trials and being subject to temptation was because God is teaching me how to live in His Grace while being tempted. So far His Grace has sustained me and I feel as though He will continue to pour more graces upon me.

I have been reflecting a lot about what the Father has revealed, and in such a short amount of time, things are quickening up, the Spirit of God is moving like fire over all the earth.

It’s now getting to the point where I am having complete conversations with God. I sometimes talk mostly, but I do stop and listen and when he speaks I know it’s Him, because He taught me and His words have authority, yet gentle and loving at the same time. He wants me to learn His presence more. While all this is happening, I desire more, I ask Him how can I love him more?

The Lord heard me and answered my prayer. I have been struggling to understand the mystery of our need to unify ourselves with Christ in His Cross and how this plays a role in our suffering today. Let me put it this way, how else shall one be raised with Him, Jesus of Nazareth, who died on a cross for all sinners?

Jesus hid from me a truth about what this means and only revealed it when I asked truthfully, how can I love God more?

Jesus revealed to me that when we endure any suffering and offer it to Him, what we are in fact doing, is actually enduring the burden with Him on the Cross, with countless others who have done the same, our part reduces Christ’s suffering that is repeated with every sin, and when I realized this, I saw a large number of Saints, each on their own crosses suffering with Christ, each bearing their share of Christ’s suffering, and because of this act of Love, Christ United Himself with them all, they did what they could by His Grace to give Christ rest from the Cross. I will gladly and eagerly take as long as possible on that Cross, because these moments indeed give Christ rest from His suffering, though we could never extinguish His suffering completely, Jesus is the only one that destroyed all sin. Yes, destroyed. The part that drives me with the same Passion, is indeed about being raised with Him. That moment happened over two thousand years ago, and because of that knowledge, I know that I am already United with Him especially on His Cross, which means that I have already been raised in Christ, so by being raised with Christ, and I always will be, that makes me a Son of God, like many others, and through us Christ will Return. So be it. Amen.

Peace be with you all!

I know the Lord said to me to rest and wait and it was also later affirmed that I must wait for the Lord, but I’m getting too excited about what the Lord is up to, I am awake. His Most Holy Spirit is moving quickly, and Graces are pouring out from Heaven to earth. If we ever had a choice as to when would be a great time to be on the earth, it would be today. Today, because despite our sins, God still is pouring out His Mercy and Grace, and we must not refuse Him. In fact, I pray that all those close to God realize just how important it is to reach out to others when they feel prompted by the Lord to do so, and that the Lord lavish His Grace on them in such a way that their eyes are opened and they see the Truth. The Lord is calling us to assemble, assemble in the basements, the parishes, the halls, the parks, and the deserts. For he has chosen many people throughout the earth. These chosen people are indeed his Sons and Daughters, Glorified through Christ, Unified in the suffering of Christ, and destined to live as Christ, but yet they are not Christ though they are one with Him, and by being one with Him they are one with the Father and they have indeed fulfilled the Awesome Prayer of Jesus, as it is His Will.

Behold, those who have been United in Christ will indeed subdue the earth. They are the meek, as they will inherit the earth, who else will reign with Christ for a thousand years on while on earth?

Be not afraid, even though my Father’s Mercy will only last so long, His Wrath must and will be great. I am starting to learn that it is only by His Grace that I am able to declare Him as my Father, as He has declared me His Son. Oh the Divine Mystery of Christ is Eternal Salvation! Do not reject this Gift! For the greatest desire of all the Saints is to be United to Him in Everything. So when He allows Salvation and offers it to us freely, do not reject it due to the your shame from your sins, because Jesus became sin itself and all sins were destroyed on the Cross as a result. Do you now get it?  Do you now see?

God will lower himself
Down to the lowly
Until he lifts us up
Wrapped in His Glory
He will leave behind the wicked
The wicked will all perish
He will raise up and perfect
The lowly and the meek
His Children He will raise
Hinder not these blessed ones of God
They have been tasked
By the Father in Heaven
To Witness Heaven coming down to earth
And the way by which you will know them
Is Love

Last night I was physically attacked again and again, there were hundreds of demons biting and slashing me so I offered myself to Christ. Let me tell you, the amount of suffering is way beyond my ability to articulate, and every breath was wrought with intense torment. If I coughed it was the same as a death blow. I endured it all because He protected me. I woke up feeling fine the next day, only for it to happen again after my normal duties, though not as bad.

I write of this because I know there are many who do suffer, but they do not suffer willingly, so what happens when you give your will over to His?

I will tell you this, if you suffer unwillingly, then it is your sin causing your suffering, your pain, your anguish, for you have detached yourself from God and are sitting in a stench of sin.  Let Him bring you out of that stench, come before Him and receive Him. For when you suffer as an offering not for yourself, but bear the suffering for others, the Lord will bless you.

Do not think that I have come to bring peace on earth; I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. For I have come to set man against his father, and a daughter against her mother and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law; and a man’s foes will be those of his own household. He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; and he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. He who has found his life will lose it, and he who has lost his life for My sake will find it.

When Jesus died on the Cross, the two criminals to the left and to the right of Jesus, one rejected Him, the other asked Jesus to remember him. There are two kinds of people in the world, the ones who insult and reject Jesus and demand He show His power, the ones who, though they lived a life of sin, they recognize Jesus and repent. Just like the criminal, Jesus promises them Paradise, even though they are indeed nailed along with him, lawfully so.

To those who demand, God will indeed show His Power, but woe to you by whom it shall come should you still reject Him.

Now after much has transpired, amazingly in such a short amount of time, but seems like ages, I want to continue, despite how draining this is, for I am weak, and will always be weak, and for that reason I am troubled. I know my Father will be merciful to me on the Day of my Judgement, that Day with great Hope and Love, I cannot fathom what this means. I know also, that to few, the Father will raise up to the Highest Heaven, those whom he has Kissed.

I had a vision of many different people, clad in brilliant white robes, like dazzling diamonds, glittering like they were alive, they were transfigured in Christ to perfection, walking the earth, speaking the Word of God into the hearts of those gathered, performing miracles in His Holy Name, Jesus present in the world like never before, and this will be the First Resurrection, this will be the Second Coming of Christ.

At first I thought that it was my imagination that was causing me to misinterpret the Word of God written on my heart, but indeed that which stirs in my heart is far greater than my imagination.

An experience that forever changed me, the Lord took up my lifeless body and breathed into me His Spirit, I was revived and brought face to face with Him and He offered me Ascension right then and there. I said the following words, “After what I just experienced my Lord, I really need your Grace. I wanted to let go, but what held me back? I could not… You said You will take it from here, but I was still weak and afraid. Then you came close to me. So close, your sweet Love ready to pounce the moment I offered you my flesh, my life, and my Love.”

Everything became bright as my breath held still like the stillness before time began. Then we became one, an experience I will never forget.

Those who do evil in the sight of the Lord, the Father says this,”Do not harm a single hair on the heads of any of my Children! For you will incur my Wrath. Your evil deeds will spill out like entrails from your mouth and be brought to light for all to see. So repent and forgive with Love! Reconcile with one another, all of you! I will blot out your sins, and forget them forever. Should you repent, forgive, and Love with the greatest act of My Love, I will reach down to the absolute least worthy of my Children and raise them up as a sign to you all. Listen to what they say. They are the ones that announce in My Name their presence. They are seeking out new ways to act out my Love. Their sacrificial offering of their very own worldly lives to Me is like sweet honey on my lips, I took them in through my Son, and formed them in my Bosom. I will restore their bodies to give Me Glory so that all will know that they are indeed from Me the one True God, and I am He, Yahweh is my Name.”

I cannot express in appropriate words, just how important this really is. The Father Almighty, through His Son, and Holy Spirit has revived me. My face set towards Him in His Glorious Light, bathed in His majesty, with the hope to be brought to perfection.

I received another strong prompting from the Lord, and He revealed to me that the prayer group I just joined, that the Lord wants thirteen men in this group, no more, no less. Of these men, we will from within His Church, spill out into the rest of His Church, performing miracles in His Holy Name, driving out evil, and most importantly, pouring out His Divine Love by acts of His Love.

Many years ago, I remember being anointed by a Kiss from Jesus on my forehead, His Spirit stayed within me, but I still wandered far off, lost to the depths of Hell, slowly turning myself into the very thing that I never wanted to be. The Lord saved me, and revealed to me truths that are wonderful, merciful, and oh such a blessing! My God revived me, He breathed His Fire into my spirit and burned away the stench of evil. The Lord asks much of me, though I am nothing and cannot do what He asks because I must surrender to Him, and let Him possess me, so that in turn I may possess Him. How great and wonderful is He who has given us all this Gift!

The Father sang an Ode to my heart, this Ode shattered me into pieces, and filled me with His Love. My greatest desire, to Ascend and not die, by his Power alone, will be fulfilled for I know my Lord Loves me and I Love Him.

My heart grows stronger with Love every day. My praises are lacking, but will increase in time as I continue to give myself over to Jesus Christ more every day, He is gentle, and He is in me and I am in Him, we will be as one as we are now, but I will diminish completely by His purifying Fire, and then I will be no more, but He will resurrect me after being purified within Himself, leaving me in the image He created me, and then He will shine with such Glory where the beauty of all the cosmos pales in comparison, a Glorious Light to shine for all the world to see and believe that it is Him who sent me!

I am not worthy to nor should I even be able to sing praise to God, yet praises to Him still comes from my lips?

I just experienced a powerful, overwhelming, to the point of passion, a taste of God’s grief. Oh the grief still rings in my heart! I was so distraught when I heard the cry of God’s people. He consoled me quickly, and I fell before His feet praying a prayer I never prayed before. I cannot write this prayer in its entirety, for this prayer came up not on my own accord, but by the Grace and Power of God from the depths of my Heart. I asked God to annihilate me, shatter me, destroy me within Himself so that He can make His home in me and my home in Him, therefore I will be used by Him. He asked me to stand up, embraced me, and I heard a Decree from the Lord, but cannot write it down.

I then felt an overwhelming sorrow well up within my spirit, oh such great sorrow, but so sweet sorrow, because I desired greatly this Union with Him, but could not bear the thought of ever offending Him again, to me, it was now or never, and there is nothing I can do but ask. I sang a song from my heart, this song of sorrow, longing, offering, and marriage soared into the highest courts in all of Heaven and filled the courts like incense. He consoled me once again, and said to me, “Peace John and have patience, wait until the wedding, I will never leave you. You are mine, and I am yours.”

As I am still embodied in imperfection, the Lord will transfigure me before others, and on this day, the Lord will reveal Himself in the Father’s Glory for all to see.

I asked our Mother Mary, if she was permitted to speak to me, and she said in reply, “Yes, John.” Let me tell you, the very beauty and sound of her voice gives praise to God, as this was the first time I have ever heard her voice, and I will treasure it in my heart. I will honour you Jesus, by honouring your Mother with a sweet prayer.

How long will Your Mercy be portioned this time, O my Lord? For You do indeed have me. I am yours. I want the same thing as You, let Your Glory shine, so that all people turn their hearts and faces to You. Let me be the instrument by which You fulfill the Word You have written, and Your written Word on my heart.

I have a long journey ahead of me, and one day at a time, every day, I ask the Lord to purge the evil within me, I reek of a stench that only the Lord can burn away. “Peace be in your heart and follow me”, says the Lord.

People must stop glorifying themselves, for those who act out of Divine Love, do not.
What does it mean to act out of Divine Love? To act out of Divine Love, you give the Lord permission to act through you and His Will is fulfilled. Decide to let God act at the very moment you are given the decision instead of yourself, and be pleasantly surprised. Bless God not for His sake, but for yours, for if a child blesses his father, what father would not bestow a blessing in return? Truly, I tell you, the Father will bless you, even if your own earthly father would not.

I asked the Lord to purge any evil that is within my mind, body, and soul, to shine His Divine Light into the darkest recesses of all I am so that I may be spotless before Him… only by the power of His Grace.

I must point out that my thirst to grow within God and Him in me will never be quenched until the Day. More and more I want what He offers, and I do not want to stop. The thought of wandering off this path of the Cross is devastating to me.

All of what happens is the Lord’s will. We all must remember and keep in our hearts that the Lord does not need us, He wants us, and there will come a time when the Lord’s Mercy will come to an end and His wrath will come. To those who are chosen by God, those who repent, will be spared the eternal torment of Hell. But alas, there is great Hope and the Lord is Merciful! There are those whom God has chosen, they will not even taste death for they have been united with Christ on the Cross, and while they stand on this very earth, they are those who have indeed let God annihilate them within Himself. I set my eyes on you Lord, so that they can be in You, and You in them, that they fulfil Your most Awesome Prayer,

“Father, the hour has come. Glorify your Son, so that the Son may glorify you. For you have given him authority over all humanity so that he might give eternal life to all those you gave him. And this is eternal life: to know you, the only true God, and the one whom you sent—Jesus the Messiah. I glorified you on earth by completing the task you gave me to do.

“So now, Father, glorify me in your presence with the glory I had with you before the world existed. I have made your name known to these men whom you gave me from the world. They were yours, and you gave them to me, and they have kept your word. Now they realize that everything you gave me comes from you, because the words that you gave me I passed on to them. They have received them and know for sure that I came from you. They have believed that you sent me.

“I am asking on their behalf. I am not asking on behalf of the world, but on behalf of those you gave me, because they are yours. All that is mine is yours, and what is yours is mine, and I have been glorified through them. I am no longer in the world, but they are in the world, and I am coming to you. Holy Father, protect them by your Name, the Name that you gave me, so that they may be one, as we are one. While I was with them, I protected them by the authority that you gave me. I guarded them, and not one of them became lost except the one who was destined for destruction, so that the Scripture might be fulfilled.

“And now I am coming to you, and I say these things in the world so that they may have my joy made complete in themselves. I have given them your word, and the world has hated them, because they do not belong to the world, just as I don’t belong to the world. I’m not asking you to take them out of the world but to protect them from the evil one. They don’t belong to the world, just as I don’t belong to the world.

“Sanctify them by the truth. Your word is truth. Just as you sent me into the world, so I have sent them into the world. It is for their sakes that I sanctify myself, so that they, too, may be sanctified by the truth. I ask not only on behalf of these men, but also on behalf of those who will believe in me through their message, so that they may all be one. Just as you, Father, are in me and I am in you, may they also be one in us, so that the world may believe that you sent me.

“I have given them the glory that you gave me, so that they may be one, just as we are one. I am in them, and you are in me. May they be completely one, so that the world may know that you sent me and that you have loved them as you loved me. Father, I want those you have given me to be with me where I am and to see my glory, which you gave me because you loved me before the creation of the world.

“Righteous Father, the world has never known you. Yet I have known you, and these men have known that you sent me. I made your name known to them, and will continue to make it known, so that the love you have for me may be in them and I myself may be in them.”

The above passage is the Word of the Lord from the Gospel of John, Chapter 17.

Jesus wants us to be one with him. He wants us to be one with him so that we can Ascend, that’s what His Awesome Prayer is about, and let it be done!  Amen.

Peace.

There was a man sent from God, whose name was John. He came as a witness to testify about the light, so that all might believe because of Him. John was not the light, but he came to testify about the light. This was the true light that enlightens every person by His coming into the world. He was in the world, and the world was made through Him. Yet the world did not recognize Him.

“The world did not recognize Him” still resonates today, for when Christ appeared and continues to appear before the world, they are blind and do not recognize him. Woe to those who indeed recognize Him, but do nothing or reject Him.  Even to those Christ will be merciful, should they accept their humility.

It was revealed to me by the Grace of God through scripture, many passages, and in prayer that Jesus wants Unity in His Church along with a strong sense of urgency not for His sake, but for ours, and this Church is His Body, there is way too much division and the Lord is lavishing graces and gifts upon us to bring together His flock. Many are performing acts of Love towards their neighbour, many more will come forth. The Lord is bathing us in His Divine Light and evil is retreating from His Divine Light. We are not just people who are members of a church/parish/religion, we are His People, we indeed Love with the greatest Love that is God Himself, and we know who we are, we are His in this world, fashioned in the Bosom of the Father, fashioned to be like unto Him in all things, including His Magnificent Glory. We are those who sacrificed our very own worldly lives, so that by our sacrifice we give Glory to God, for it is this sacrifice, in union with Christ’s passion and death, that we are permitted to become one with the Father by the Mercy and Glory of God, under acknowledgement that we are indeed nothing and Christ does not need us to fulfill the Will of the Father. For His desire for us is to become One with the Father, and that by becoming One with the Father, the Almighty Father will grant us, who give ourselves to Him in this way, the gift of Holy Ascension.

Yes! The Mercy of God has no bounds! Very truly I tell you, God establishes His Sacraments with us, but we however, cannot establish His Sacraments. By the Father in Heaven and by the Grace of God, I must witness to this Glorious Gift, the Eighth Sacrament, the Sacrament of Ascension, and prepare those whom the Father has chosen.

It was also revealed to me that the First Resurrection is soon, and I am to bear witness to it, whether or not it will be when I am old, or tomorrow, matters not, for I have found true Joy in giving everything I am to Him. I was the one who wandered the furthest off into the desert, forgot who I was and abandoned God, I have been to the depths of Hell, did the most horrific things in the sight of God, my sins were great, my rebellion against God an abomination, they are all indeed forgotten even though they were the absolute worst offenses. God in His Mercy, led me out of the desert to the spring of Eternal Life, a spring of Living water for His Glory. I was the one who squandered it all for the pleasures of the world and gained nothing, was lost and separated from God, but was found. How Glorious is He who is to come, how He lavishes His mercy upon us! Give praise to Him who is the King of kings, the Lord of lords, and God of gods! For if He can have such Mercy and Love for such an abomination as myself in order to save me, then anyone can be saved.

I love you Father, Son, and Holy Spirit for all that you have granted me. I humbly ask that you grant me the perpetual grace to Love as you Love, grant me the perpetual grace to act on this Love. For these acts of Love, is your Light in the world.

Last night my heart was on fire. I felt the Holy Spirit move within me, to do small acts of kindness towards my neighbour, all out of Love. I wanted so much to tell them all that the Lord revealed to me, but some of their hearts were closed. I pray dear Lord, that the seeds I planted out of Love, grow out of faith into the manifestation of your Love.

I now have the same desire as our Lord, that all the people of this world be as one with the Father as Jesus is in the Father and the Father is in Jesus, that Christ’s Body, His Church, be brought to perfection before His Glorious return. On that day, those who are to remain and reign with Christ after His Glorious return, those who choose to Love with God’s Love are indeed God’s chosen people, and they will be brought to perfection. What will you be doing on that day?

By my Father’s loving Grace, He has Deified me in Christ, and by being Deified in Christ, I am One with the Father, as He is in me and I am in Him, and we are One. The Father is now Glorified through Jesus Christ within and through me..

I will set fire to the world, a kind of fire that will bring down nations, raise the dead, and renew the face of the earth.

I have a strong sense of the word from the Father that only by His Grace while we remain here on earth can we be in this state of being, a oneness with Him through Christ, a calling to be a witness. He revealed that the sinful flesh must die.

I have therefore learned how to possess God, He who fathered me and made Himself known to me without ever losing His transcendence!  He who encompasses all beings possesses me as well and has now, in my nothingness, ordered all things within me according to His Divine Will.

The Father’s Love being the Spirit of God is the same Love that sustains us, keeps us in a state of Grace, all we need to do is decide to Love and act in this Love, always, that’s it. For what act of real true tangible Love, that is, God’s Love, is not His Will?

When Jesus said, “My yoke is easy, and my burden is light”, He meant it, because all we have to do is Love one another with no conditions, in all that we do. While this has been said before by Jesus, it is not understood by many as to what this means. It is the core of our Faith, and it is only by grace that we are able to carry the burden of Christ, so then He carries ours. When we ask for grace, we acknowledge our weakness before God and at the same time He instills His Divine Will in us to act out of this great Love while under His Powerful Grace. We are not able to do anything without Him. Nothing. Including being chosen. See and understand what it is that the Lord is saying to you. Yes! You, reading this now, can be Embraced by Jesus, place your trust in Him and he will grant you graces to Love and live in his Will, and oh how sweet is His Embrace!  Be not afraid!

Ask our Almighty Father for His Graces that you need, but do not limit yourself, open yourself to what graces you need such as, the Grace to Love with His Love, the Grace to act out of this same Love, the Grace to give yourself over to Him, the Grace to breathe the Fire of the Holy Spirit into the world, and the Grace to pour out his Mercy, but when you are ready and out from the Greatest Love, ask Him for the Grace to Ascend.

The Lord is being very merciful, unlike ever before, and He is pouring out blessings upon blessings upon all His children.  Bless the Lord, and ask daily for His Graces, ask daily for His Love, ask daily for all that is His Will and by His Mercy He Will indeed Bless you.

The Lord revealed to me that a great earthquake will strike the earth and many lives will be taken as the coasts of the western world will fall into the sea. This is the first of many calamities to come, but there is hope for those who wait and justice for those in Heaven when all is fulfilled.

In response, I was reminded that we are obligated to pray for those to whom are impacted by any revelation from God. In my weakness, I feel I am unworthy to bear this burden, then I recall His word “my yoke is easy and my burden is light”.

It was also revealed to me that though I have the authority to strike the earth with any plague and turn bodies of water to blood, this is not my command, it is God’s command and through me He commands the earth to shake like never before according to His will. Amen.

On the same day, upon reflection of what I wrote, I asked the Lord for one thing, while being mindful of the scripture: Whatever you ask the Father for in my name, He will give it to you… Keep asking and you will receive, so that your joy may be complete… At that time, you will make your requests in my name, so that I will have no need to ask the Father on your behalf.” I said another prayer, “Father, I surrender myself to you, please grant me the grace to do your will in the name of Jesus your Son. Amen.”

Nov 11 2015

I can with confidence say that I am always surrounded by God’s presence as He is always protecting me, especially in moments of death, so that I can be brought face to face with Him and then brought back. I dare not boast for my own sake, but I am boasting of Jesus, for it is Him who is coming, again! See how Merciful He really is? How is it, me, a sinner, the worst of the lot, deserves God Himself? How it is that the Lord God Almighty, lowers Himself to me even more? I can tell you it is not because of anything I have done and it is not only me that he is offering this to, He is offering this to everyone. Everything He has given me, I am unworthy of and only He can make me worthy. Truly I tell you, my desire, which is God’s, is that this Word be of a benefit to others, to help them grow in their understanding of who God is and His desire for their Eternal Happiness in the very short amount of time we have. I will out of the deepest Love of Christ, endure any and all acts against me and thus God Himself, including ridicule, hatred, humiliation, torture, any amount of suffering, for I give my life to Him without cost, as our trust in Him is the fulfillment of His Word and the fulfillment of His Eighth Covenant: To Love one another as I have Loved you.

I prayed today a powerful prayer of surrender to the Father. I asked for the grace to do His will, out of same Love that is God, as is my daily prayer. I received by his Grace, an understanding of what it means to bear the burden of Christ and to unite my sufferings with His, for on being united with Him on his sweet Cross, we will be united with Him in death that is sweet. For those who have offered their very own lives to the Father through Jesus, United with Him in His Passion and Death, will be United with Him in his Resurrection and His Return, for how else shall the Lord make perfect His Church? Be purified in the Fire of the Holy Spirit, and allow Him to change you, to transform you, to move you, to Love you and Love through you.

Peace.

Just as it is with a child, we learn by example, as those around us witness God’s Love in action, they will learn that Love is the answer.

We who are created in the image and likeness of God, we are all children of God and can all be alive with His Love in this world. The very same Love that heals the sick, casts out demons, and raises the dead.

Those who are not of God are like darnel among the wheat. The Lord will let the darnel grow with the wheat until after harvest time, then He will separate the darnel from the wheat, and the darnel will be thrown into the fire to be burned and the wheat taken into His barn.