Category: Journal

I spoke with a someone beautiful today, and I told her about my childhood, bits and pieces, suffering, leading up to the visions and the locutions. I saw such love in her, it was comforting to see, as I was talking with her about one aspect of myself, particularly my innate ability to fall in love easily, i.e. attracted to those who love, because I can peer into the souls of people, I came to realize that I also see those who do not love, or are lacking love, so I am to love them more than those who have great love in their hearts, to find a way to break their hearts of stone, and instead of wandering off into the desert, to walk with Christ any which way He so chooses. Another revelation that I had during my time talking with her was that all I feel, ever since I died on the couch, no matter what pain I am in, the suffering is gone, and what remains is Love, Joy, and Peace…

That’s my claim, I’m already in Heaven, so should the end come now, I will feel sorrow for all of my inactions to convert souls back to Him, to convict them to belief… Signs and wonders only convince the few, so what remains is destruction for those who reject Him. How much more there is to Christ than the reward of Salvation by His Name! Salvation is just the beginning, much is still to happen, but there is one thing I know that others do not, and it will remain hidden until the right time, for the Glory of God. So to that, and for you to remember, that prophecies can still be fulfilled, if that’s the Father’s will, but they always are fulfilled in the way that people least expect it.

At this point, all I can say is, Love without cost people, act out of Love and mean it, Love like you have never Loved before, ask for the Grace to Love with the greatest Love that is God. Write Love poems to people showing them that Love is not sex. Repay evil acts against you and others with acts of Love, not violence or war. Bless everyone you meet and make amends in peace. This is the way to Heaven, and I tell you truly, the Gates of Heaven are already open, so what are you waiting for?

Christ says this: To the unrighteous, heavy is the hand that will strike you down should you continue to persecute those under your power. Turn from your evil ways and My Peace will fall on you and remain with you until the end as a reminder of My Mercy.

The Lord over my heart, my God and Savior, Jesus Christ revealed to me, a memory when I died of starvation and I remember He was angry when He spoke with me. He brought me back because of the prayers of His people, they cry out to him to end the suffering. So He is sending me into the world, and now my prayer is this. That anything I say and do, in the name of the Christ, and in the name of my new self, is done according to the Will of my Father, Yahweh. Amen

So, how do I Love God more, how many ways can I bless Him?

I call on St. Michael several times a day, but now I call on him to capture and deliver Satan before God for He is to be judged by God the Father. I ask any and all people, to stop the hatred. Peace people, but not just peace between enemies, but peace in your hearts, let go of the past, and be free from the pain, free from suffering, free from death. Amen.

I was assured today that the devil flees from those who simply worship the Father by humility, love, and devotion.

While I still acknowledge that I am nothing, He is everything and I Love God with all my heart, mind and soul. So much so he has raised me from the dead. Yes indeed, he sustains my beats, confounding the medics. The Lord is awesome, and so much so is my experience, I’m excited for all the Good things that are coming, but at the same time I have a deep and strong sorrow for the lost. The Lord will leave the 99 to find the one, I was that one, and he found me and saved me. There are more and now I want Jesus to do His part through me to bring back the lost.

While I said I was done with the dead, and this is true, I will endure once more that which he wants me to endure in order to usher in the New Heaven and the New Earth.  The question is how much destruction will be required to purge the world of the evil that refuses to repent?

I abhor violence, anyone today who acts out violence in my name, shall be cast out. Turn from evil, turn to Love, that’s the answer.

Take my hand

Let me lift you from the dirt
This life sacrificed
Gains nothing here
Not in want anymore

He’s in command
Angels are at the ready
It’s the last bowl my friends
It need not be this way

Grace and Mercy
Out of Love is the key
Salvation my friends
It must be this way

What I have seen
What I have written
Many paths before me
The Lord knows what’s in my heart
He leads me up this mountain
We’re almost at the summit now

Of this Love I found in the Lord, I can write volumes and volumes, Love others through it, and bring them joy. Bring them consolation in the knowledge that the day and the hour matters not, we fear it not, we welcome it, but our hearts are full of sorrow for the lost souls that would be gone should He Return now at this moment. Hence this Word to you my beloved people, He is indeed coming soon, and there are only a few who have already been raised.

Know this, the first resurrection is the raising of the spirit to Heaven, giving life eternally to those who receive his breath of life, his Love, his Glory. Yes, indeed, there are those who have already tasted death, but they now live and are passionate warriors for Christ. Not for the war you are thinking, but a battle where the weapon is Love itself, through his branches we bloom His Fragrance into the world.

So here is how you are to do it. It’s simple, it’s possible, and anyone can do it. It’s not easy, but the reward is greater than you can imagine.

Start with pity. If you have pity on someone, it’s a message from your heart telling you that you have something to give them to heal them, deliver them, raise them up, if that pity moves you do something out of Love, unconditionally, for that person, then go, do it and ask for the grace to do it out of Love. Do not expect or ask anything in return, bless them in secret if you can, and if you make a mistake, cause yourself or others to sin, seek forgiveness and turn back and face toward the face of Love and you are already forgiven. If they reject you or scorn you, pray that the Lord help them see. Lean on Wisdom, she is indeed your comfort in trials against you.

I have a strong desire to surround myself in God’s Love, so I’ve sought out those people that were of God’s Love, so bright and beautiful, I found them and loved them, but I’m still wanting to Love those with the Love that is God Himself. His Love is my light and my guide, though I keep on, though I walk through thorns, and I break and bleed, He is always with me. I know Love and Love knows me. The heart of this dead body still beats because He wants me to remain. My eyes are toward Heaven, my life and all that I am is His. For His Glory, Amen, let this be that which will bring those who desire eternal life to Jesus.

I told my Dr yesterday that I am a prophet and that the Lord is coming soon. He said that we don’t know when our Lord will come, but I said we don’t know the day nor the hour, I said that the day and the hour is his, but we know the season, as it’s written. He then indicated to me that this is private revelation and the Bible says to keep it to myself, I refuted that by saying that the Church teaches, not the bible, that private revelation is to be kept in the dark, but this is not private revelation, and that Christ also said to not light a lamp under a table.

This is not private revelation, that Christ is coming soon, as it’s already been revealed in the book of Revelation.

I suspect at this point, now that I have stepped into the light, that there’s no stopping it now. I will be the subject of ridicule, likely lose everything, suffer much, and possibly die once more if I do not ascend before then. I tell you this, in all truth, by the power of the Spirit of Truth in the name of Jesus Christ, that if I remain scorned and am put to death by their hands, the end will come. If the state of your soul between you and your God is irreconcilable then you do not want the end to come.

Reflecting on what I’ve written so far, in my weakness, anything that I’ve written about myself, my story, etc, may have been embellished due to my faulty memory, however what I wrote I wrote while in the mind of Christ, as He is always there, and as I am now and they are therefore His words, not mine.

My heart is billowing with joy
One more chance, really
Last chance
Make it count

A New Song to be written and sung
Making a Glorious show of God’s Power
Raising the Hearts of His Children
Leading them all to ascend

It is no coincidence that the day I died of starvation, the day that I was delivered from death, was the day the Lord offered us all one more chance. This is it. Now I can’t do nothing, and I will trust the Lord that He will guide me in everything until His Glorious Return, for if He does guide me, and I have already been delivered, where I go, no one can follow unless they are in Christ.

She danced in the rain
In front of my open door
Her smile as she twirled
Enticed me to come out

I stepped out into the rain
It washed away the pain
Only when I looked
She was gone away

Distraught my heart bled and bled
I bled out until I died
Starved to death
But my Lord saved my life
As he always does
And now I am stumbling along

Reflecting back on my efforts to give glory to God, I have failed. I have failed my Lord and ask for his forgiveness because all I have done and written is hidden, and Christ said no one who lights a lamp places it under the table…

For the longest time, as far back as I can remember, I struggled with my own identity. The struggle was always constant, consistent, and led me to this point. It has come to me by way of the Spirit of Truth, that I am both man and God, not begotten, was made, manifest only by the power of Grace. One in being with the Father through Jesus Christ. Who came down from Heaven and united himself with his Children, by the power of the Holy Spirit we became Christ and are awaiting his Glorious Return. But know this also, he has already returned in Spirit to those who have asked. Listen to your heart, ask for the Spirit of Truth, and give Him permission to show you everything.

Now I wait, I wait for his command, and because I know I am in his debt, I can never repay, but this is not in vain, for Christ destroyed sin and death by becoming those very things and was sacrificed so that we can be free from all evil.

I felt like I was carrying the whole world on my shoulders. Then the Lord revealed to me that if I was to receive His Authority over the whole world, that I must also carry their burdens to relieve theirs. This I cannot do, but Christ can, and we are of one mind.

I never would wish Retribution
For anything done to me
Because anything against Love
Is not from God

But you would be frightened
Should you see what God will do
What lengths he will go to
For us, to give us Love
Only you disbelieve your own hearts

The Spirit of Truth reveals all
The Counselor is indeed mingling about
All this within me
I am told to wait and write
I wait

I have to write
What’s on my heart
When incense surrounds
It all becomes clear

For when I opened the Scriptures
Scriptures opened my mind
Surrounded by it I entered the Scriptures
Scriptures thus entered me
Now I write

I see beyond the words and faces
Into their spirits I peer
Only those who discern can see
The truth of of the state
Of their soul

In pictures and movies
In books and stories
His Love is scattered unclaimed
So few of them are left
I’m being deceived by history