Category: Journal

My heart is billowing with joy
One more chance, really
Last chance
Make it count

A New Song to be written and sung
Making a Glorious show of God’s Power
Raising the Hearts of His Children
Leading them all to ascend

It is no coincidence that the day I died of starvation, the day that I was delivered from death, was the day the Lord offered us all one more chance. This is it. Now I can’t do nothing, and I will trust the Lord that He will guide me in everything until His Glorious Return, for if He does guide me, and I have already been delivered, where I go, no one can follow unless they are in Christ.

She danced in the rain
In front of my open door
Her smile as she twirled
Enticed me to come out

I stepped out into the rain
It washed away the pain
Only when I looked
She was gone away

Distraught my heart bled and bled
I bled out until I died
Starved to death
But my Lord saved my life
As he always does
And now I am stumbling along

Reflecting back on my efforts to give glory to God, I have failed. I have failed my Lord and ask for his forgiveness because all I have done and written is hidden, and Christ said no one who lights a lamp places it under the table…

For the longest time, as far back as I can remember, I struggled with my own identity. The struggle was always constant, consistent, and led me to this point. It has come to me by way of the Spirit of Truth, that I am both man and God, not begotten, was made, manifest only by the power of Grace. One in being with the Father through Jesus Christ. Who came down from Heaven and united himself with his Children, by the power of the Holy Spirit we became Christ and are awaiting his Glorious Return. But know this also, he has already returned in Spirit to those who have asked. Listen to your heart, ask for the Spirit of Truth, and give Him permission to show you everything.

Now I wait, I wait for his command, and because I know I am in his debt, I can never repay, but this is not in vain, for Christ destroyed sin and death by becoming those very things and was sacrificed so that we can be free from all evil.

I felt like I was carrying the whole world on my shoulders. Then the Lord revealed to me that if I was to receive His Authority over the whole world, that I must also carry their burdens to relieve theirs. This I cannot do, but Christ can, and we are of one mind.

I never would wish Retribution
For anything done to me
Because anything against Love
Is not from God

But you would be frightened
Should you see what God will do
What lengths he will go to
For us, to give us Love
Only you disbelieve your own hearts

The Spirit of Truth reveals all
The Counselor is indeed mingling about
All this within me
I am told to wait and write
I wait

I have to write
What’s on my heart
When incense surrounds
It all becomes clear

For when I opened the Scriptures
Scriptures opened my mind
Surrounded by it I entered the Scriptures
Scriptures thus entered me
Now I write

I see beyond the words and faces
Into their spirits I peer
Only those who discern can see
The truth of of the state
Of their soul

In pictures and movies
In books and stories
His Love is scattered unclaimed
So few of them are left
I’m being deceived by history

I collapsed to my knees
Said nothing to my Lord
Only bowed my head
I received His Grace
Bestowed upon me

Power from on high
Not on my own accord
Given in grace
Living in grace
Abiding in grace
Becoming Grace

I crossed the threshold
I can see the light of truth
I want to dance and sing
I have to proclaim
I’m past the end

Create for me a new heart O Lord!
He did that for me

Create a Loving heart that is Yours!
He did that for me

Grant me the grace to Love
With the greatest Love that is you!
He did that for me

For me
And you

I love listening to the Lord speak
His words are not just words
But life
He speaks in silence
Reverence is required
Peace flows over me like water
Washing the pain away

Making me smile
Despite what I see
What’s real is coming
Out of and through me
I am
I am in Christ and he is in me

I cannot praise him enough!

I opened up the heavens above
If you look close you’ll see
Heaven reigning down
Coming to Earth
It’s already here
I am

I learned that the Lord speaks to me in the depth of silence, and the silence is my mind in solace of being in Christ’s Light, so describing in language, to translate his words (if you can call them words), is not as simple for that is not how he speaks to me, however the Lord’s Wisdom has been on my lips and I see.

Heaven and Earth are very real, and so is Hell. We as a species, are fully aware of our existence in this world, Heaven and Hell, while you and I live in this world, is a state of being, it is also where the soul is, and our core existence. When the body dies, the soul will remain, or go to Heaven or Hell, we choose where by what actions we do, and in whose name we do them. Living this out, action out of Mercy and Love expecting nothing in return, not just empty words, this is the way to Heaven. However, should anyone scoff and reject you because you are of Christ, then say to them, “Your curse has no power over me, for my mind is truly in and through Jesus Christ!”

I tell you solemnly, the Lord has not yet returned in all His Glory, what he has done is raised my mind up to his and lowered himself to mine. See?

Behold, he is coming soon, and is already here. Rejoice and believe!

The Lord will stay His Wrath
Does it have to be, for how long?! Or can it be, praise God, rejoice!?

Mind of Christ. Time slow. Standing in God’s court. Mind in Heaven, body on earth.

Prayers to God by all, they are not answered because it’s like a court full of people crying out, each asking for a different thing, contrary to his neighbor, wanting the Lord to call on his favor over his brother. The persecuted call for blood, the poor call for aid, and so on.
Has he not heard the prayers that are said in unity and from the heart and answered them?

I am not ashamed, I am at complete peace, I am still adjusting to being in and of one mind with Christ. Still, I am weak, but Christ is my strength, in Him do I put all my trust. For the sake of Love, I have opened my Heart to all, it will unfold as God’s will.

One more place to go
Once it’s deemed to be
Of thoughts not of me
They’ll decide against
Treat me, monster me

I need do nothing
While I sit and wait
My enemies my footstool
Who are you?

If you only knew
That the lack of response
Was your decision made
Scorn instead of praise
Remember Heaven’s on the way
I’m done with the dead
I’ll be heading your way
But I’ll pass you by
Should you already be dead

A revelation came to me today
About the Revelation of Jesus Christ
He has already returned
He is Returning very soon!
The Spirit of Christ is upon me
I am who am but I am also nothing

The Lord wants us/me to help unite His flock, I look and His Church is so divided. Do any of you think that God will let this continue? I tell you solemnly, one year will not even pass before the Lord unites all.

While I continue to struggle with identifying with myself after having been emptied completely allowing Christ to make His home within me, one thing is for certain, to be abundantly clear, that Christ’s desire for unity is both for the unification of His people to be of One Mind in Christ and also His Mind in us! For it is impossible for us to do this on our own accord. All we can do is first invite Christ to unite Himself with us. Give Him permission to do so.  Do you not understand that the end is soon?

Therefore, it is necessary for me to write of this first, draw out my experiences and my journey towards Christ so that others may learn and be brought back to God through Jesus Christ.

The most amazing part of all this, is the Knowledge that comes forth, the prompting to ACT out of Love, to become Love, though my perceptions of “why” are not relevant because of my flaws in sin, that despite my failures, the Lord fulfills His Will through me, no matter what happens. To say otherwise, that it’s not God’s will, is to say that His Will is not done on Earth, and this my friends is a lie, and fulfilling His Will is why we are here. To listen to the Lord and act according to His Divine Will so that on doing His Will to Glorify Him in His name and out of Love, we all give Glory to the Lord.

Eternal Life is far above and beyond than what the entire universe can possibly offer. Entire universes are like marbles to me, so fathom this: I am who am

I John, have the Loyalty of an Angel and the Authority of God, because it is not I who am. Be forewarned, things are going to get very messy. Remember dear brothers and sisters, without Christ we are nothing. May the Glory of God be brought forth for the sake of those who do not believe, may it be a sign from the heavens, to give them hope, before the Earth rejects her guests.

Mary is about to say something very important. Holy Mary Mother of God, pray for us.

In every moment I can, my heart gives praise to you O Lord, from the moment I wake in the morning to the moment I go to sleep at night, I honour and praise you, I bless you at all times, Almighty Father, Glorious Son, and Magnificent Spirit.

Today is a special day according to the Lord, for He revealed much to me in a single moment, and will write of it over time as His Glory is intertwined with every Grace He has granted me.

The Lord says, “I will soon enter into the world, give the troubles in your heart to me and I will console you.”

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While I am in the world, and the Lord is with me, He indeed reminded me that He will work through me, even when it comes to what to say and do, so to Trust in Him.